one life, one chance...

holly cow, i dont even no were to start... ok well, my moms husband (my stepdad) is sick.. he's been sick for several years though it has just resently hit him full on.. him and i havent been really close sence i was like 10 ish...? and my life sence, could fill every episode of "Opah"..lol though its nothing to brag about.. i mean these days who doesnt come from a broken family? well with this upon us i desided to write him a letter.. i think it may have been a little harsh though i believe it may have been nesessary... it took me forever to write it.. its so hard to write ur lifetime of emotions and thoughts and things that hurt u in just one letter... but i did!!! im not too sure how i feel about opening up like that im really not one to talk about how i feel, i tend to just bottle things up and leave them there to simmer.. but im tryin this new thing were i take my emotions into count cause i cant begin to tell u how hard it is on ur self and unhealthy it is to bottle everything up... and its a little scary and i feel a little vonerable but i can except that eventually and learn to maybe be a better person because of it!!! i dont know that i could ever forget the things that happened, but im willing to forgive...it deffinatly wont be easy and it will take alot of hard work.. ALOT.. but im willing to try!!!



ok and now for the second man in my life!!! Kenny... were do i start with that..lol his and my relationship has been complicated for about a year now... and we moved to colorado to start over, which i thought was a great idea, we could both get away from our outside influences and relearn each other... and just recently things suddenly got really hard between us.. i think we both got really sick of the games... so he put his foot down and so did i and after a couple days we talked and worked things out!!! this was a couple weeks ago, and now im realizing how happy im becoming!!! the only thing i could wish for is for our outside influences to see it, except it, and just be happy that im happy i mean what more could u ask for, for some one u love?

hi.. ok so i no i havent droped in inawhile, so i thought i would catch ya'll up on my life for the last couple weeks... so first off, i went and got my hair done at my aunts saloon in Denver, were she was training a new girl. so she called me to be a model, (so i could basically get my hair done for free, and who wouldnt..) when i walked in there my hair was past my bra strap on my back and i new i needed at least 2" cute off.. which i was fine with.. cause im trieing to grow my hair out.. i just like it better long.. after 3 hours of then foiling it to point that i could have picked up H.B.O...lol i really liked the way the color turned out.. though in the middle of the new girl cuting it the way i asked my aunt came over picked up a chunk of my hair and cute off 5"... i was soooo mad, i didnt cause a seen cause im just not like that but the less i was very unhappy...Grrrrrr.

that weekend i went grociery shopping and in the middle of the store they had a giant bunny made out of coca cola and diet coca cola boxes...loved it and i just had to share it!!!!

ok and i am completely broke.. which sucks cause i quit my job and havent found a new one yet..lame.. but i had a few extra bucks left and just felt like i really needed to get out, so i called a few friends and we all descided to go bowling.. which was sooo much fun, oh and how lucky am i that we didi on "lady's night"..lol so everything was half off!!!

our champagne and chocolate covered strawberries!!

dinner table (sooo cute)

The Radisson castle in denver were we stayed!!!!

heres the view!!!

just one more, so u can wish u were there

so now that im finally settled in colorado my roommate and i desided to go on a hike at Garden of the Gods. its such an amazingly beautiful place. these really cool red rock came up out of the ground and are so random.. so we climed to the top of one. it was one of the smaller ones but still a little too high up. once we got up there i was a little nervous...lol

My Puppy!! (goober)

My Life So Far..

My mom (Dianne) had me on October 5Th 1987 in Colorado springs. soon after we moved to Jackson Hole Wyoming. were i grew up for the next 19 years. she had my brother (Dillon) April 1st 1995. through the difficult times we have had are ups and downs but through it all we have grown really close even though it took allot of learning on all are parts. she has raised us to be independent out spoken. shes a very strong women and i praise her for that!!! This is not my first time living here in the springs i lived here for 1/2 a year back in 2006 and was going to school for cosmotology.. i finished half of school befor i became a beauty school drop out..lol mainly be cause i hated the school.. i mean who pays 13,000 to go to a school that suspends you for wearing white sox? so i moved to Idaho falls for a year planing to go back to school were i did for a month and left because i was teaching the teachers...? so now here i am.. back in the springs hoping to go back to school when i get the money..lol My dream is to become an actress!!! so i always thought cosmotology would be a great way to get my foot in the door some day...? we'll see!!!