so much for Fall.. =-(

so my favorite season has come and gone and i didnt even get to enjoy it.. by the time all the woods changed color into the deep reds and oranges and that Fall breeze had that amazing sent.. Jack Frost came after only two nights of this blissfull time and he laughed in my face.. now the only time i like this man is during x-mas when its snowed alot, and he frosts over the top of the snow so everything looks like it sparkles, like in a snow globe.. thats about the only time i thank him... but his behavior for this will not be forgiven.. (lol) he he

i love my brother

so dillon and i are very close and he is going to make some girl really happy... while i was in jackson dillon waited on me hand and foot.. it was soo cute. him and i have always been night owls and now with me being prego and really starting to show, it doesnt matter how tierd i am i just cant seem to get comfterable.. so he would stay up in the living room with me till i fell asleep then he would turn off the tv and the lights and go to sleep himself, in the process it doesnt matter how much i eat in asetting im still hungery like an hour1/2 latter.. so he would make me mac'n'cheese at like midnight..lol(baby craves it) so when i do eat i try to eat smaller portions.. which seems to be getting harder and harder.. and by the time i left jackson dillon said he doesnt wanna eat any more mac'n'cheese..lol











now dillon is a big boy.. he's 14 and like 5'10" and 204lb.. which is weird cause when u think of a little brother u kinda always expect him to stay "little".. but noooo, they soon get bigger then u and u cant give them as hard a time as u used to cause now they can throw u over their shoulder..lol dillon has always been really good at sports.. so this yr he tried out for high school football and got full back on off fence and nose on defence!!!.. so the last day i was in town it was homecoming.. and dillon a freshman got asked to play varsity with the other seniors!!! so cool just thought i had to brag!!! and we slottered them 58 to 12!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!

its my baby GIRL!!!! i was soo excited when i new exactly what baby was!! i feel like i can really bond with her now.. i was always calling her baby.. cause it sounded weird to call something so precouse to me an it.. so now i feel like everything is actually real.. kenny and i already registered at Babies.R.us which was fun at first till i realized how much i actually need..aww talk about stress..lol any who, i plan on sending out invites to the baby shower here soon i plan on having it after the hollidays.. around the end of jan early feb...? not sure.. part of me thinks that
may be too close to when i pop but it also seems far enough after the holidays..? ( might need some advice on that one...)

Things work in odd ways

So my mom comes down to the springs on for a week to visit and her car breaks down so poor Kenny has to spend the week fixing the suburban and my mom has to be to work that Monday, so when it came time for her to leave town her car still isn't done.. she decides to kidnap me to take her back up to Jackson.. now the only reason i went was because she called Ted and asked if he could hire me for a few weeks while i was their.. and to my surprise he said yes.. now i already talked about the letters Ted and i sent back and forth to try to mend things.. so i was a little worried about working for him for a couple weeks.. and on top of that he doesn't approve of me having a baby.. not just that I'm too young but also who its with.. now him and i arnt very close so its not like i need his approval but its always nice to have any family members support u even when you'r in the wrong.. but I'm not sad or upset about this baby I'm excited and i no its gonna be allot of work and frustrating and everything under the sun.. but i cant explain how great its going to be to be able to love someone so completely and no that no matter what they need u just as bad as you do them!!! but now that iv been here for two weeks it makes me feel like it all happened for a reason and it was so great to get to know him allover again and be able to rebuild that relationship. i feel like iv accomplished getting this life time of depression and bad memories off my chest!!! and i cant explain how fulfilled i feel.. now don't get me wrong, we arnt all buddy buddy yet and that will still take allot of work to get their but after all this it just seems to make it easier!!!

10 weeks!!!! 187 heart beats!!! and 7cm!!! the first time i got to see my baby!!!!

its crazy, being pregnant. Iv known i was pregnant since June 17th, and even though i new, it still felt like it was all so surreal. you don't feel the baby inside you and you just have to realize the fact that everything from that moment on will never be the same.. and its allot to try to grasp. though it did explain the queasy sickness feeling i had from the week before and am still experiencing. i am fortunate enough to have not had any morning sickness!!!! Though I'm still trying to figure out what food works and doesn't..lol so far i really like fruit and brockly and BBQ sauce along with mac and cheese with tuna and peas..lol and if you'v never tried it i highly recommend it(my mom used to cook it when i was way younger)

when you find out your pregnant not only does your perspective of life change but so do u and not just physically..lol but emotionally as well. things that once mattered don't and dreams that you once wished for, you no longer see coming any closer. life becomes a new book not chapter or page but a hole new book. like a squall, and its not that your sad that certain things are gone. its just that you wake up and your dreams have changed. and some how you know these dreams are better!!!

Expecting!!!!

well... im pregnant!!!! suprise!!! im due Feb 17th 2010!!! i no wow, right? though it wasnt planed i am actually excited now that its really hit me...lol!!! Kenny hopes its a boy of course and i hope its a girl!!!.. but hey i guess we'll find out!! i'll keep u posted!!

cheyenne mountain zoo!!!

so even though we have lived here for 6mnths.. we havent really had a chance to enjoy the suroundings. so i googled co springs and now we have a list af things to do!!! so we hit the zoo!! which was soo much fun i havent been to a good zoo in forever!! it was a blast and a really good exercise..lol the zoo was at the bottom of the mountain and there was a tower, castly thing at the top that we drove up to after the zoo and it was Will Rogers shrine.. it was so nice up there u could see the hole city!!! it was a great day!!!!

this is a beever... u cant tell...lol

these r monkeys that look like scunks..lol

and i have no idea what happened to this pic...?